When someone asks me what my pain feels like, I tell them things like "If you stabbed me with a knife in the same spot a thousands times..." or "An elephant is sitting on my stomach..." or "Stab me with a butcher knife and start twisting it..." or "My ribcage feels like it's squeezing my stomach...". Grant you I don't exactly know what that type of pain feels like; though, if I could imagine, that is the type of pain I would associate mine with. Don't get me wrong, I am not trying to exacerbate my pain. It's just difficult and stressful for someone with Crohn's Disease to describe the pain or the location of their pain.
So, if I tell you the pains I have had since 3am this morning feels like someone is forcefully pulling on one specific area of my small instestine, do you think you could analyze the excruciating pain I have been in? That's been my entire day! I hardly got any sleep last and I literally laid in bed until after noon before actually getting up.
I finally forced myself to get up, thinking it would help. I made myself something for lunch, yet didn't eat but three bites. However, getting up out of bed did help a minute amount. I managed to go talk to some medical services today; though, it was pointless, once again. Although, I did recieve some information on help with medications. If you are interested, www.needymeds.org is a helpful place to find coupons and discounts on medication.
After two pointless hours out in town, still hurting, I gave up and headed home. Once I got home, I applied for a couple of jobs online, barely ate dinner, and rested. I was able to rest for about an hour until I started getting rude messages from people accusing me of things I didn't do. I just hate how ignorant people can be. So, as of right now, I am publishing my post, turning off my cell phone, and heading to bed to a nice sleep.
1 comment:
Totally having sympathy pains for you. It's such a vicious cycle that stress exacerbates the Crohn's pain, yet the pain increases stress levels.
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